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And so i froze my nose, well.. more like cold burnt it.. But it was so damn worth it..

A very spontaneous decision, cost quite massively, being foolish not appreciating 2 years time in Sweden, rather waiting till moving to Berlin and only clutching back to sweden’s charm.. Also thanks to a very convincing “young man”..

And so we made ourselves superhumans by being almost naked in the -20s..

And withstand the freezing cold and pull out our penis to try draw-shoot our name but end up creating a pile of yellow mess..

Did the snow mobile of 80kmh over the frozen lake, the rush was just full of adrenaline, with a fair share of comfort when u were hugged warmly from behind :) Though guiltiness strike with the amount of petrol being burnt, the speed and snowy wilderness was just to overwhelming to feel too guilty.. will do my deeds by being bio vegan for 3 days..

And paying a visit to the ice hotel, made me NOT fantasying about sleeping and making out in this room for the night.. though if given the chance to sleep here.. will definitely wanna explore that option.. was glad that we had a warm cottage for ourselves.. and fun mushroom spreading pillow fight..

While being frozen all throughout in -30 degrees, eating outdoors just sounds stupid.. but the viking style of raindeer mixing with potato and lingon berries was something of what we call, an experience..

Though northern light aka aurora didn’t come by that night, the view was already virgin to my humble little eyes..

Just makes me wonder.. how lucky it is to even be there..

and how lucky it is to have such a bunch of wonderfully awesome buddies.. till we see each other again..

Such big contrast of feeling, that one could experience within the span of just few hours, or days. Xmas this year was just to beautiful to put into any words, the short few days of warm homey feel in upper Austria, in a place called Vorchdorf (yea try pronouncing it, remember the V in german pronounces to a F in english) And so, this feeling still lingers nicely in my senses - lieber mama, mutter mun, home Xmas food, nice ppl, amazing companies, and so much more just makes Xmas so magical.

It really aint fair that i am not writing about the unforgettable Xmas moment in Austria, but instead about the current moment of feeling.

It’s 1st Jan local swedish time, 0147 to be precise. And i actually don’t feel anything. 1 full day of total packing, officially the last night here in Uppsala, with the luggages weighting precisely to 30.2 kg, i am somehow very reluctant to leave wat i feel closest as “home” outside home.

Thanks for the loads of facebook new years and birthday wishes, u know who u are and i appreciate how ppl take the few seconds of their life, once in a year, to pollute my wall :) sincere shout goes out to those that took the extra mile with very personalized and customized messages, mails, and a very sweet call from Nachbar, which just makes leaving Uppy so much harder - i have learnt to stick to my principle with regards to a place, the destination is something, but it’s the ppl that makes the place so much more meaningful.

And so when the clock was 2350 just now, i said goodbye to Nachbar and bf and slapped on my just-laundried fat jacket to walked out in the cold, intention - pure fireworks hunt. Didn’t i realized that it made my feel so lonely.. Good buddies are all not in town, the only one remaining had promised to call back home to parents and therefore there i was, snapping up the icey ground with my waterproof (not snowproof) reeboky.. direction, towards the castle, from a call received regarding the blasting source for the night.

Was not too spectacular, maybe i wasn’t really in the mood of it. Walking the ice, mumbling to myself, with a light heart, “hej Jian, it’s new year, it’s ur birthday - happy new year & happy birthday”. It has been too long that i was not by myself during this moment of the year. I look around and see many happy, mostly drunk ppl being loud and carrying their obvious horny faces, i wanted to approach anyone, to wish them happy new year, yet couldn’t lift myself to do so - and so there is no birthday hug this year - technology is just too robotic, human touch is just so much better. Though a very sweet message from an Italy bonded, lighted up the moment -the bright side of technology. And somehow, guess it’s probably a sign that the destination has to be changed, and so it will be - country code 49 from tomorrow onwards..

Start the new decade with loadsa good wishes, draw the resolutions, paint the dreams, feel the love, and appreciate the moment..